Thursday, August 28, 2008

A Test

6:58 AM by Christi Bowman

I was tested, and it took me a few days to pass. God is patient...AMEN!!! I have felt, these past few days, like I was going to break in half under the pressure of this test. I have not felt this overwhelmed, this angry, and this surrounded by so much darkness in a long time. There was no light at the end of this tunnel it seemed, and the only light I thought could come along was completely out of my control and the control of any other human. This problem to solve is God sized, and completely God's, and He is not in any hurry to "fix" it.

I have refused to wallow in fear and self pity...though I have succumbed to anger. I have put my shoes on albeit in the dark, and dug in. I have done what I needed to do, and anxiously awaited alone time with my Father. I got it Wednesday night. I worshiped for at least 2 hours. I opened my heart. I listened. I waited. I was reminded of the second part of Hebrews 11:6..."He rewards those who earnestly seek Him." I claimed that promise, and I worshiped with all my heart. As I worshiped He provided more and more music...and then He blessed me with His presence. His presence IS the reward, and there is NOTHING better. If we are waiting to be rewarded with the tangible we will not see the reward for what it is, and we will hurt Him.

There is now Light in the midst of my tunnel. Light, Light, and MORE Light. My circumstances have NOT changed, but I am NO longer groping around in the darkness of the tunnel. My tunnel is WELL lit!!

I have OVERCOME...Praise God!!

"To them God has chosen to make known...the GLORIOUS riches of this MYSTERY...which IS CHRIST IN YOU, the HOPE of GLORY." Colossians 1:27

A friend of mine calls relationship with God a dance...and it most certainly is. We must do our part. You can't hope to receive the prize unless you run. Put your shoes on and start the run. He will be your rear guard (Isaiah 52:12). He will put a skip in your step, and you may just find yourself dancing in the midst of certain trouble...trampling all over satan as you go.

"not the grim strength of gritting your teeth but the GLORY-STRENGTH God gives. It is strength that endures the unendurable and spills over into joy, thanking the Father who makes us strong enough to take part in everything bright and beautiful that he has for us." Colossians 1:11&12

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