Saturday, September 6, 2008

New Territory.

8:39 AM by Christi Bowman

On this journey of mine to find out who God is and what that means for my life, I have had MANY course corrections. One song that has been of some comfort as I have guiltily struggled to get back on the right path is Caedmon's Call's "Where I Began".

Chorus:
Here I am again, back where I began
Try as I may I can't get away from you
And all of these roads lead me to roam,
Bring me back home.
Here I am again, back where I began.

As I was listening to the particular album that this song was on (40 acres); it began to play. I sat back preparing to be soothed by it, as always...but it was different this time. It was as much disturbing as it had been comforting. No, I am NOT at all back where I began. I am much farther along this time. I am in brand new territory...uncharted waters. I am macheteing away lies, lies that have formed thick cobwebs...sleep inducing cobwebs because it has been too dark to see. New can be, by its very definition, unfamiliar and strange, and I am going to add lonely. As I put behind me old beliefs about the Godhead and put on new ones I find myself standing alone...sometimes shouting...

is
there
anybody
out
here?

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