I've found myself addicted to many things that have hurt me spiritually, but with the help of an AMAZING God, a WONDERFUL husband, and a few good friends I am overcoming. I have what some people call an addictive personality, and I have heard it said that when one addiction is given up it can be quickly replaced with the next best thing that comes along...all I can say is I HOPE SO.
christib @ drkaos.com
christibowman @ gmail.com
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You told me
growing up
that you would
love me
no matter what.
But, what you meant
but couldn't say
is
if I did it your way.
I know about
your past
I've heard about
the neglect and abuse
but that doesn't
give you an excuse
to hurt me.
I was the child
you, the adult.
Why didn't you fight
your demons harder?
God knows I have
for the sake of my children.
I watched you pretend
with the people you called
"friends"
and now I am one of them.
And,
THAT SUCKS!!
You keep me at bay
push me miles away
I DON'T KNOW YOU!!
We play at this game
Our relationships a fraud
you call me daughter
I call you mom
but we are estranged
and I feel it
with every word you say
and all because
I didn't do it your way.
I love you mom
and I always will
but I can't keep swallowing
your bitter pill
I have fought for your love
I have wanted to please
but nothing is good enough
because you can't control me.
Your lies and your secrets
are what hold you together,
and you have chosen them
over me.
I can't reach you,
you are to far away.
You sacrificed me
for your own way.
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