Wednesday, June 17, 2009

A Limp.

8:45 AM by Christi Bowman

Some people live in a constant state of physical pain...for others the constant reminder that this world is fallen is much more prevalent on an emotional level.

I have a thorn in my soul. I walk around with a gigantic gaping wound that bleeds profusely and yet everyday I must get up and walk around; most days I must put one foot in front of the other as if the wound is not really there...and that is hard to do...and so I limp.

To the naked average eye I am no worse for the wear, but I am not the same person that I was even one short month ago. Life is different with a constant ever present wound even if the puss that oozes from it stays tucked away deep down under the surface of my skin.

I find that in this constant state of agony I am more sympathetic towards humanity as a whole, but I am much less fond of being alive. This world has lost its wonder...its intrigue. I feel as though I am standing silently by as life's appeal melts before my very eyes.

In this state I think often of God clothed in skin, and on some level I know that what God did in Jesus is so much more profound than we as mere human beings posses the depth to realize.

JESUS BEAT THIS PLACE!!

Sometimes I find myself wishing God would help me as much as He helped Jesus.

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